"The sky is the limit, And I just wanna flow,
Free as a spirit on a journey I’ll go, Cut the strings and let me go, I’m weightless, I’m weightless.
A million dark balloons heading to the ground, Weight of the world tries to hold us down,
Cut the strings and let me go, I’m weightless, I’m weightless."

This post is a bit of a sad one on my behalf. My boyfriend told me that he didn't really like the idea of me posting about him, but now he is my ex, so I guess he has no choice. He broke up with the other day after two and a half years, simply because we're so young and we both need to grow alone.
We had the most perfect relationship the whole time we were together, but I guess everything just has to come to an end at some point. I'm trying to be really mature and sensible about the whole situation and not turn into one of those people that wastes their time moping around and whining. 
But the truth is that it hurts, quite a lot. I've cried, I've cursed, I've stayed in bed, taken time off from one of my jobs, I've  done every normal thing you do when someone breaks up with you. But all I really want to do is forget. Its the hardest thing for someone to tell you they love you with everything they have in them then decide you're not enough to make them stay, because whether or not you want to hear it, the main thing you hear is 'over'. No one ever said that relationships were easy, and I know that, but I never thought I'd see this day any time soon. I don't want to hang around and hope and pray that he changes his mind because it will crush every little part of life left in me, but I'm not prepared to give up completely and forget our love. I want him to be happy and if that's not with me then okay, I have to deal with that and move on with life.
I gave him everything, it may have been in pieces here and there, but I gave him the best of me and he showed me the best in me. 
Which I suppose is why it is so sad, because he made my smile be seen from the other side of the street but never really seemed to see it himself.
The above song to me is such a motivational song and I have been playing it over and over. I want to feel weightless and free from sadness.


Anonymous said...

oh pippa, I'm sorry to hear this! I think it would be great for you both to grow as individuals; but try to remember the fun you had! :-) Anyway, it could of been worse...!! I hate it when people break up...! I just hope that when I find a man, it'll be forever.... I've waited long enough!!

Julia @ Retro Jules

Anonymous said...

aww sorry to hear! Best thing to do is set yourself a list of things youve always wanted to do, and just do them! theres a few reasons behind this, one being its a good distraction another being that he will see how fun loving you are and probably miss it and another being you may realise that you want more than him, and that your happy being single!

Hope you ok! xx

Hannah said...

Pippa you poor babe :( there must be something in the water at the moment, as me and my boyfriend broke up the other day too :( I really hope your ok, you know where I am if you need me xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx love

menina elegante said...

Oh honey, that boy is a dumb idiot to break up with you!! Just know you are stronger and better then him. :) And that everything happens for a reason!! Stay strong hun. :) x

Jill said...

I'm sorry girl :/ Breakups are so hard. Music helps me so it's good you're using that to heal.

Couture Carrie said...

Oh darling I am so sorry!


Katie said...

That's awful I'm so sorry :( I hope you have tons and tons of chocolate and ice cream, just what the doctor ordered!

That's Ron said...

oh no! I'm sure u'll find someone better!

Deidre said...

I am so sorry! This is so upsetting to read. While I think it's ok to push yourself to "get over it" remember to take time to mourn too. It's ok to whine and moan sometimes.

Life At Victoria House said...

Thanks so much guys, really appreciate the comments! xxx

Rachel McCallion said...

well done girl! just you focus on what's next for you and don't give him a second thought - as hard as it may be! Your last comment says it all!


Marie said...

I'm sorry about the pain but I do like that you are being mature about the situation.

I like this song too, positive and empowering.

***** Marie *****

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